Saturday and gloomy

been awhile. the back's been paining me some, so i've taken time off to resolve it.

gotta appt. @ Cedars Sinai next week, hopefully their treatment will supersede the V.A.

but don't get me wrong -- don't misunderstand my intentions.

there are good people down in Long Beach, off 7th street.

the Veterans Administration.

but not the best.

they're just...available.

and i figure it's my life.

my days and nights awake for hours on end because of some tiny little defect in my spine;

the pills they happily shove down your throat only to shoot daggers @ you when you ask for more;

the MRI's;

the X-Rays...

i'm whining, again.

i quit that.

anywho, i may have to spend big cheese with the doc's up in Los Angeles.

massive debt.

or not.

i assume it's worth it.

i assume that's what you're supposed to do.

not just give up because it hurts.

or guzzle tiny white pills till you're screws-ville.

you gotta try.

@ least that's what they tell me.